Motherhood.......hmmm

So I decided to post on Motherhood. It is the greatest blessing and the worst curse all at once. I don't say that to be mean or to be viewed as an awful mother, I say it and write it so I will remember this journey.  I never understood the sacrifice of being a mother, the physical, emotional and financial sacrifice that is required. It comes down to the simplest of things really, if you have a drink expect to share at least half, sandwiches be grateful if you get a bite and you will forever be getting the check. I didn't even understand the sacrifice of sanity that you temporarily give up, or the sacrifice of the english language that you have to let go. I speak English to my children but their are some days when I don't think they know what that is. They stare at me as if it were a completely new concept to them, and if I didn't know better I would think my children were hearing impaired. I do love them all, but wow sometimes it is a lot to handle.
My post was preceded by a handful of school mornings, and by that I mean waking 3 children who never seem to get enough sleep, trying to find breakfast in house where they claim there is nothing to eat ever, and then trying to get clothing on their naked bodies and brush their teeth before their breath kills someone, and be out the door by 740. This week seemed especially worse than normal. It could be the Christmas break fever in the air, but none the less it has been rough. Brinkley has finally reached the point where I don't really have to prod here along to much. McKinnon takes a descent amount of prodding to get him moving. He seems to find something else to do than what he is suppose to be doing all the time, but Aniston watch out she is a whole different ball game. That child is either fluent in Chinese and really doesn't understand what I am saying or she lives in a different time zone where she has hours to loaf around before school. She drives me to my breaking point and then I loose it and I physically have to push her off the stool to go and get ready. She went to school yesterday with out her hair combed or her teeth brushed and I actually let it happen. If you know me at all then you know I expect nothing less than the best, but I don't know what else to do. If she is ok than I guess I have to be as well. I emotionally can't handle the arguing. Dylainee is a 2 year old terror. This week alone she has colored all over the tub with crayons, colored in Brinkleys piano teachers christmas book with pen, and on the way to the kids christmas program she colored all over her hands, arms and legs leaving barely any skin visible. Ok so now let me say they are beautiful and wonderful children and my life would be empty without them. I think Korey and I have done a pretty good job with them. Of course there is always room for improvement. I know that my children will end up blaming me for something that hasn't gone their way in life but we provided a warm, loving home for them. And I think you all will survive........I will get back to you on that.